this is my 1ooth post! so i shall dedicate a picture to my darling haha. love you lots you stupid pooch :D hmph that little brat gets away with murder, seriously. if anyone else tried peeing on my hw/ stealing my pillow/ trompling up my stuff they'd be dead by now haha!
promos are ending!!! after everyone's reassurances...haha i don't feel that scared of results now. xie xie ni men for all the long phone calls/smses/msn convos! i realised the great thing about having friends in other schools's that everyone can encourage each other when schedules dont clash (: worrying is a super annoying feeling especially when it's for other people cos ultimately, nothing's in your hands ): whereas if it's yourself ,you either deal with it or die, right? simple.
oh, and i just realised. my mom is insisting that i go learn swimming again after promos! ): hmph i wear a LIFEJAC. and nobody's been able to teach me since P2 kays. plus she hasn't even seen how badly people're shaken up after attempting to teach me heh. well good luck to whoever's gonna be stuck as my swimming coach after promos,better go buy life insurance first.
today=mugging with shuaige and gao =lovelovelove (: looking through all the before/after canoe pictures tickles me like mad, it's so uber cool to see how we've all changed haha! at risk of being labelled thick-skin, i think we look a lot more fit and stylo now :D and argh nats've been pushed forward so full speed ahead people! dare to mess with the hcanoe girls and you'll eat our wash (:
haha okay chem paper has made me very scared for promos now! look at how tragic and nickoh reassured me:
me: 'so, did anyone from yr class get lousy grades yet promote to j2 last year? like, really really lousy but not retain?'
tragic: 'yea, there was. lousy grades, promoted, didnt retain....just had to leave hwachong and go dunman, that's all (= '.
HAHA WT?!
ooh look at sharon's pro maths ability.'one class consists of 26 people. the probability of your friend coming in last is 1/26, whereas the probability of him not coming in last is 25/26. so since you betted that he WON'T come in last, you're at an advantage!'
yea man this rocks. dude we havn't agreed on what i'm gonna get if you dont come in last, so when i state my terms and if i win, you're in big trouble haha!
this is for you shuaige! (: our pretty rainbow and clear skies after the storm:
love you muchly kays we'll give you a huge bdae bash after promos <3
aww looking at this pic makes me miss our territory ): HCANOE LOVE YEA! ugh i feel majorly unfit now, it's like poof non-existent abs and my muscle mass declined D: the thought of hitting full-intensity training again after promos is slightly intimidating and i keep thinking about what zh said the other day:
'in sports, it's simple. either you train to win, or you don't train at all'.
y'know, i never expected to fight for anything in canoe. looking at my size and fitness level back then, i was happy just to be able to get into the sport, or even to hold my own. it wasn't until we started the thrill of racing and seeting higher goals that i thought, just maybe, there's something more to this. and up till now i still hate the thought of under-performing, cos seriously, all the jokes about the wind blowing me over and stuff aside, there's really no excuse for not doing well in a competitive sport, is there? when you look at the nj girls that're half my size and still double my speed and stability, and you realise there's gotta be that extra x-factor rather than just brute strength and muscle that's pulling them through.
promos are tmr! lalala it doesn't matter cos this means it'll be over all the sooner. (:
anyways. i don't know why and i expect all my friends are sick of hearing me say it but i still have no idea why i dont have the motivation to study in hc at all. i know it sounds crazy but i mugged a whole lot harder back in st nicks when the competition's supposedly not so tough and all. it's like, i know promos are here and i'm super not prepared but somehow the word fear just doesnt register in my mind. i'm lazily cruising along and treating it all like just another piece of particularly nasty homework that i need to get outta my work. it's not promos that i fear, but rather my lack of fear of it that worries me /: eeks somehow i think that maybe i've used up all my mugging abilities for Os, or maybe it's just that after the extreme task of getting through them nothing much scares me anymore.
on a lighter note, ben messaged me this today: 'ganbatte promos are almost over, push on man!' hahaha thanks dude but promos havn't even started for hc!
3rd oct :D :D :D
lovely bunch of people invading hc (: me chejian fangting fengchi ben shuling. we'll spend a long long long time catching up at class bench then benny, chejian and i are gonna hit the gym whoots. and then we'll go makam at poolside/ coro and shu's coming over for a sleepover.
yayyy hurry up and go away promos, little children wanna play.
hi friend for once i'll post a glam pic of you:
ms act cute (: i promise fangting that if i dont get a D average for promos, i'll kiss ---
use your imagination people. and i'll make sure i mug hard, this girl is ruthless when it comes to making other people keep their promises.
after promos we can go for campfires with the lil sn guides and abuse our seniority hahaha jk jk. we'll watch from afar as they follow our footsteps, starting the campfire with a fireball and bombing all da other schools. and we'll wait with bated breath as as they change into their costumes and remember the days when we did our cheerleading dances and lugged our pom poms around too. after the thrill of the blasting music, games and dances we'll follow 'em to the canteen for refreshments and it'll be us doing the tsk-ing when the scouts play truth or dare and we'll be aunty-ish and remind the gals not to give out hp numbers -.- and then we'll wait for the last few straggling parents to come fetch their kids and whoosh off we go.
only this round my dad won't come along to pick us up in his pickup truck, this time round we wont lie in the back with the wind in our hair and see the pretty stars twinkling on the expressway ): but yo we'll ring up the 76 clique and dress up nice (or at least better than our usual guides tee and fbts haha) and go kbox-ing up late before we hit the streets (: haha and then we'll come back and watch our sappy old disney movies and sing all the old high school musical songs and catch up on all the scandals in our various schools yo.
and pearl will talk about the ac bimbos and peixuan will continue her nj love stories, and fangting will rattle on about the scary rj waterpolo guys hahaha. and the rest of us will sit there enraptured, i.e. dozing off and then we can all sleep in late and go for a nice long brunch.
okay i really shouldnt be hyping the bimbo factor, we're good kids eh. such good little ij girls whee.
i'm motivated to work by the thought that whatever i'm going through now, chinny's having it a thousand times worse...so we gotta get through this together (:
went running yesterday with chejian! haha we went really really really slow, my stamina's imba bad by now. rather spastic cos we could take and laugh while running, and yet still not be outta breath, which gives you some idea of our speed. whee we hit the fitness stations after running and i can still (barely) do 1 pullup! hahaha super amazing but it lifted my mood lots :D we were supposed to go running at 6.45 this morning too but big guy couldnt wake up in time so -.- yay i hope we run hard later!
hello world today's beem mildy productive but i'm still majorly screwed. ahh whatever i'm in a freaking bad mood now and it got amplified cos ahem just quarrelled with ahem again over the phone. like real i believe anything's ever gonna be resolved. so yes xinhui grew up learning that happy endings dont exist and the only realistic fairytales are where the witch wins, the princess dies and then the prince goes off to marry someone else. how did ariel ever manage to get eric back from ursula anyway?! whatever i feel like i've been cheated and used and had my feelings bluffed/ toyed with a thousand times over. i know i said i didnt care so yes, everyone go ahead and laugh now that i've gone in over my head.
morning was spent being emo at the playground trying to wash last night's thoughts outta my head. sakie came by and i stole a hug before he wagged his tail off trying to cheer me up ): man i love that sheltie to bits and pieces, even a DOG can tell that i was upset. came home and hacked half of maxi's fur off before shoving him in the bath so now there's this drenched and wooly thing stumbling around the house.
!@#$$% RAH I HATE HATE HATE BEING LIKE THIS I CANT GET IT OUTTA MY HEAD!
ANYWAYS.
jiayou my pretty 'lil sister! i'll go out with you once promos/Os are over (:
and dont worry people i'll get over my funk soon (: promise promise.
i know i should have been doing my homework, but...
haha i just got off the phone with fangting and i'm all hyped up to do my work now! like, finally :D mm i'm wearing the pair of earrings she gave me for farewell and thinking about all the nice stuff we can do after promos. yesh, but i ish to first do me homework. hahaha sorry, my friend kept talking to me in that way till it got too tempting for me to try it out too! tata.
i love kovu and kiara :D
um yes 'tis another day squandered on disney videos. ): rawr i spent the whole day watching sappy disney stuff where everyone lives happily ever after ._. sheesh but i just love lion king! and peter pan and wendy and the disney princesses (:
okayyy i'm going to hide in my room now. sixth sense tells me there's gonna be a storm brewing real soon.
hello (: i'm recuperating at home cos i can't tahan alr. but i THINK i'll go back to sch later to mug with undeserving ppl hmph. -stomps on yr foot while you're wearing gay socks and no shoes ha-
anw, was supposed to start mugging from 7 but sheesh...i'm online listening to songs now! i think i'm super fickle cos my choice of songs always revolves around what my friends listen to. Ansel just converted me to listening to Fall for You by Secondhand Serenade though i never loved it that much /:
yesterday...total failure at mugging! rah, i think i'm throwing myself off the deep end by trying to adopt the Os style of memorising. no way it's gonna work with less than a week left, so...i think i'll try the sec one get-a-pass-quick way instead.
hurrrr i'm still debating whether to go back to class bench later!!
today wasn't that great.
horrible morning which shar and i somehow managed to survive by staring at our little pink piece of paper and passing notes back and worth. yea maybe we should stop caring about what they think and just plow our way through wahtever we like.
how exactly do you judge a person, anyway? by his character, his actions, his words or his friends? where do you draw the line between learning from the past, versus being stuck in the past? and in life. is it better to be headsmart or heartsmart?
this stuff, should really wait till after promos.
studying with gao is love (:
hc got invaded by wild animals today! squirrel, monkey, lovebirds, kungfu panda and um. giraffe. very tall one HAHAHA. okay sorry that was lame but i can't think of any other animal for the last one. i love being at class bench after school on mondays!
whee. despite repeatedly being bullied/ scared/ niaoed/ having my shortness of height and intelligence emphasised a million times over by those crazy friends, i'm in a super high mood today! yayyy :D
okay i (kind of) finally remembered to post this up:
teachers' day celebration 08...fangting's unglam day and me trying to smile through my haze of tiredness. ha.
feel strangely nonstalgic now ): that was my clique and my world and i miss them. at times it seems weird that nobody else in hc other than eliz knows what it was like for us back then. back in a school that consisted of so many stereotypical cliques at times, and yet which gave us so much love.
ij spirit burning brightfill this world with love and lightlight that shines for all to seelove that sets our spirits freehold on to our dreamof love dont stop believingour hearts and mindsever seeking ever servinghold on to the soundof our friends all joyously singingto the Lord our Godto the Lord our God abovehold on to our dreamhold on to the ij dreamhold on to ourdream.....
hello i'm back (:
hahaha the very annoying thing's that i waited ages to come back online again, but now that i'm here, i can't rmb what i was looking forward to so eagerly...stupid me. chem test tmr is majorly screwed too but....rah. it's just getting a bit too much.
went to botanic gardens with shar and zhengy last friday and it was a blast! the sparrows there are so bold, they practically flew into my lap while i was sitting down to feed them. haha we were being randomly spastic, i wanna go back there again (:
lalala. countdown to promos and the clock's ticking fast.
HELLO (:
hahahah okay somehow gaomin's sudden high-ness on msn has just made me very high too, despite my impending doom due to lack of submission of homework.
-OMG HAHAHHAHAHA GAO JUST TOLD ME SHE CUT STRAIGHT FRINGE OMG ROFL-
okay okay so. overview of hols? hahaha it wasnt THAT bad despite the unproductive mugging (: we had spastic episodes where we exerted our charm on random ppl ( gao on the TNH auntie n me on the candyshop uncle), watched the coro auntie refine her flirting, lip-pouting skills and uh, i dunno, a hundred and one other hilarious incidents that's buried somewhere in my brain (: maf was good!song, dance, camwhore and um
EH WAIT I SUDDENLY FOUND EXTRA UNDONE HW byebye i'll finish this another time!!
i dont know how i can be so rational in the midst of all this you know? still typing coherently and all. i feel like a jerk. when you get the news that you've lost something you love, your first response is supposed to be hurt, loss, pain, fear, right? so how come i felt relief mixed in with everything else? how come for one selfish minute i actually felt like i might have one less burden to worry about on top of all the chaos? and how come after all the initial shock and tears and all, right now i'm just numb and staring at the screen and not feeling anything? yea i thought after what happened to Lucky, i'd be immune to feelings and stuff already. i thought being high all the time could keep all the hurt and pain away. but i never thought that one day, i'd actually reach this stage of extreme....feeling-less. for lack of a better word. emotionless. heartless? it's like. six years ago i'd cry over every new little incident that came up. but now, i just dont feel anything at all.
Memories consumeLike opening the woundI'm picking me apart againYou all assumeI'm safe here in my roomUnless I try to start again[Bridge:]I don't want to be the oneThe battles always choose'Cause inside I realizeThat I'm the one confused[Chorus:]I don't know what's worth fighting forOr why I have to screamI don't know why I instigateAnd say what I don't meanI don't know how I got this wayI know it's not alrightSo I'm breaking the habitI'm breaking the habit TonightClutching my cureI tightly lock the doorI try to catch my breath againI hurt much moreThan anytime beforeI had no options left again[Bridge:]I don't want to be the oneThe battles always choose'Cause inside I realizeThat I'm the one confused[Chorus:]I don't know what's worth fighting forOr why I have to screamI don't know why I instigateAnd say what I don't meanI don't know how I got this wayI'll never be alrightSo, I'm breaking the habitI'm breaking the habit Tonight[Bridge:]I'll paint it on the walls'Cause I'm the one at faultI'll never fight againAnd this is how it ends[Chorus:]I don't know what's worth fighting forOr why I have to screamBut now I have some clarityto show you what I meanI don't know how I got this wayI'll never be alrightSo, I'm breaking the habitI'm breaking the habitI’m breaking the habit Tonight who says blood is thicker than water?
hello.
i am a sane and bubbly girl that is highly energetic.
i just feel so in love with myself that i had to share this joy with the whole world.
people may feel that this post is spastic. but i feel that it is just merely a way of showing how much i appreciate myself in this world.
hello world.
this really brought entertainment to my life. whoo hoo!! :DDDDD
i love this life. I'm loving it man! totally rockxxxxx MAN!!!! (like totally *flicks hand like a total bimbo)
this is xin hui posting by the way!~
pissed.
someday someone should just slap you in the face. dont
throw your weight around.
