<3: December 2008

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

'Cause this life is anything but certain
When they close the final curtain
You'll get a glimpse of the truth

2009's been the best year of my life thus far (: team+school+friends yay i'm happy :D

hcanoe girls celebrated the last day of the year by invading the cardio room! :D haha for some reason i always think of the gym as our property and the cardio room as x-country's.

x-country would die if they see what great use we put their equipment to,lol.

this is my frontman whom everyone says looked extremely sexy today HAHA. pucca and yeelin are waiting for their brother-in-law!

look at their faces full of anticipation haha

i've said this a zillion times but...i'll never regret the day i entered hc. back in st nicks, i was the typical o-lvler who thought, 'wow, hc...best jc. i wanna go there! get good results, leadership posts, scholarships...etc.' but when i really became a hwachongian, and even more importantly, a hcanoeist, i realised there's so much more to being a hc-ian than just stupid pointless mugging. the school spirit, making friends with half the school (with ip and super close sports ccas, i love the way making friends usually means making friends with friends of friends :D), mr ang's perfectly pronounced speeches (i kinda cant recognise his face yet though. smart), having incredible freedom during CT + PE + breaks, late night studying, feeling damn proud everytime i wear the school uniform/ badge. i never felt the same way in st nicks, cos i never worked that hard to fight for a place. back in st nicks it was just...mugmugmugmugmug. and guides, that's all. but there's so much more to hc, and i dont want to waste my 2 years here. yea, the way gossip and rumours fly around this place, sometimes i still feel the need to watch my back and all. but i'm sick of watching my step/ being so suspicious of people/ hiding my friendships so others wont criticise. next year i'm going to be open about almost everything because i really dont think there's any point being/having half a friend.

and joining hcanoe...haha. imba coolness cos i never thought i'd ever reach this stage today (: i love our morning dates at pullup bar and being able to eat all i want without watching my weight (but argh pocket burn hole). and what the seniors said about bragging rights...it feels great to be able to say i'm from hcanoe girls, and (this is kinda mean) thrashing even my guy friends when they doubt the prowess of our team HAHA. i like the way we sport our jerseys/ jackets with pride, the way shar and i stroll in the rain when everyone thinks we're crazy, the way our team can balance training, work and play so well. i never thought i'd be a sportsgirl, but now i love the confidence it gives me. knowing my team'll be there to back me up no matter what.

one year's zoomed by, and nats is looming up fast. 2009 will be our year, our fight, OUR RACE. when the starter says 'ready in 10 seconds...' it'll be us with paddles held high and ready, eyes straight ahead, keeping our drift in check. 'GO'. and it'll be our team that leaps to life. left blades in, starting burst, POWER. nice and steady, fight the waves, lean in front, lower cg, lower wind resistance. dont think about ~~pink elephants~~ capsizing. keep in lanes. stable. powerup. BURST. soar past the finish line. and maybe, just maybe, we'll have pieces of metal to show for our feats. jc told me that in the kayaking world, we're actually known as sprinters. hcg sprint team ftw :D

we max out, we pia, we fight the sun rain wind water. if waters suck, we know it's training for bedok, we know our opponents are struggling too. if our boats go slow/ unstable/ screw up, we think how honoured we are to even be allowed to handle such equipment. (haha for the record, tiger! i'm sorry for always bumping your nose against the pontoon/ bashing your body with my paddle/ scraping your bottom against the rocks etc) and if for some reason, giving it our all doesnt work...we know that, always, it's mind over body. if physical strength fails, if waves threaten and our boats dont listen and we cant feel the catch and we're that close to giving up..we'll just take it as mental training then. grit our teeth and fight on, being grateful knowing that this'd be one more training where we're given the chance to build up our determination. resilience. courage. faith. we'll understand that it wouldn't feel so satisfying if training was easy peasy and everything falls into place effortlessly. and when hx's words cut sharp as knives...we know those razor edges are just slicing off our flaws and problems. one more step to perfection.

c'mon teammates. we dont earn the title hcanoeist without shedding blood sweat tears for it (:

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

haha i'm forcing myself to blog cos i wanna keep track of trainings. but secretly i just want to drop down and die right now -.-

haha today's training was imba cool. go tiger! <333 oh man i totally love this boat for all the progress it's given us! :D although it doesnt look very sleek nor powerful, i'm so used to the tiger now that changing btw low/high seats doesnt bother me much, and i doubt there's any other boat which i can roll and control stability so comfortably on. i think i can probably paddle with my eyes closed on the tiger and still have absolute faith that it'll listen to me and respond to my touch. everytime something unexpected happens, like motorboat waves or people cutting into our path, i'll just be like...c'mon tiger. this ain't scary cos we've done it before and we can do it again (: it's the confidence i have in my boat that keeps me calm on water when bad things happen.

anyway the water's getting suckier and suckier which is great! totally rocks yay :D everytime we come down the lanes i'll be like 'yayyy train for marina and bedok :D' i think i blasted out too fast today though, was quite dead by the 3rd set so didnt really zoom for the 9th-12th km. we had an amazing start and the starting burst we had for one of the long dist sets...wow. haha i was grinning my face off and i went WOOHOO which was quite retarded but heck the exhilaration was so shiok! i've no idea if we'll ever replicate that (cos we weren't actually piaing extra hard or anything) but the feeling was...i felt super high cos like there was this huge mass of horsepower underneath us and our paddles were slicing through the water and everything just fell into the place. i think it must've been what jiahui (or was it gao?) meant when they say AK goes so fast that there's no time to control it, but just paddle. abit sad cos maybe i should have used that opportunity to give it my all and test the tiger's full abilities. but rawr i probably wouldnt have been able to finish my prog afterwards.

before today, i was still happily thinking that 27 km would be quite manageable seeing as there's portage, but now..lol. i'm starting to grasp the full enormity of what we're doing. but i'm still on an adrenaline high!! :D haha i love the retarded little tiger :DD

Monday, December 29, 2008

i...didn't fully know, nor appreciate, what i had until i lost it.

but even if things were the same again, would it necessarily make matters any better? there's a flip side to every coin, and nothing's under our control anyway.

just so you know, i miss you.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

yay we shaved seconds off our timing today! sharon says the water was disgusting and i kinda agree with her. but heck as long as we go fast + stable, i'm (: darbi and twin get well soon! you guys must shake off the Curse of the Tiger.

someone told me this, which i think is really apt for our team: you fight water with fire.

this is for gao:

there's peter pan on now and i want to watch but i havnt done anything since returning home from training ): despite having watched it zillion times but...rawr.

HCANOE (girls) CHALET TMR :D

Friday, December 26, 2008

hiii i've been trying to do sequences but my brain won't co-operate. i think i'll be able to finish all my work on time, but i really doubt i've revised enough RAWR.

this was me and twin during my birthday:

hols make me lazyyy. i wanna go out and play! look at my everyday schedule:

1. wake up
2. train
3. breakfast
4. mug
5. lunch
6. train/ rest
7. mug
8. dinner
9. mug
10. train
11. mug
12. train/ rest
13. sleep

and blah blah it continues. the weather's been stormy these few days and i hope it continues during training. we really need to master the art of fighting the wind and water if we're to stand any chance at bedok reservoir. i'm not really scared for stability (TOUCHWOOD) but...i'll just die if my joints freeze again ): i don't know what to expect for marathon since nobody's ever raced at marina before but self-training is fun haha! this is what we're doing later:

-run 4km
-situps x 50
-pushups x 50
-pullups until failure

um i hope we go fast for 4km this time but i bet it'll turn out like farklet again /: okies i'm going to figure out my maths now byebye.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

haha i just remembered that i wanted to post something else. i was feeling sick + cold + grumpy on my bus trip home today when this little boy sitting in front turned around and started making faces at me :D haha he was so cute! ~~his mom didnt notice that i was being a paedophile~~ so we continued making googly eyes at each other til i had to get off. he tried to press the bell and mouthed 'bye' to me. then when i got off, he cried 'bye!' and started waving and smiling aww. i love little kids (:

alright i'm posting pics now cos i have no idea when i'll next use com again.heads up zach this is what pv looks like! i remembered my promise alright =D yeelin come with us soon!

Dinner and Penelope

Dinner...keeps trying to kiss me ugh

yipyang you retard, zhonghan's not a dog!

aww (: spitz doesnt try to bite us anymore =D

yayness =D

there's like...lots more pics but i'm laxing haha. you see the little spitz with only 3 legs? he's one of my fav dogs there, and everytime i see him i feel incensed at how badly people can treat their pets. pv's a harsh reminder of just how cruel life can be, and it breaks my heart each time to see how happy and innocent the animals there are, despite all the atrocities they've suffered. to look into their eyes and see the absolute trust and faith gazing back, yet knowing that they've gone through so much more untold agonies than any of us, yet never had their spirit broken. abandonment. disease. abuse. death. there's a lot more to be learnt from being a volunteer there for a day, then attending those pretty much useless motivational seminars the schools pay a bomb for.

Lucko, this post's for you (:

i crashed for 4hrs today eeks . and i didnt go grandad's party after all cos mom couldnt make it home in time. today was horrid, my fingers hurt horribly, the bump on my foot's back, and i dazed all through gym. plus my new gloves are now stained with analgesic cream! ): it's disgusting to feel so burnt out again, i thought i was pacing myself quite well ):<

anw i received arlene's xmas card just now and i died laughing haha! my dad was shooting me weird looks so i escaped hurriedly to my room where arlene's card is now taking pride of place on my table. yeelin can i pretty please scan it in here for everyone to read! :D (but i think she'll suffer a horrible death from...certain people hahaha) and i have pets villa and bdae pics but i'm lazyyy to posttt.

oh and i'm officially in love with taylor swift! :D her songs are so niceee i'm addicted lol. i like this part of sparks fly cos there's rain in it:

the way you move is like a full on rainstorm
and im a house of cards
you say y name for the first time baby,
and i fall in love in an empty bar
and you stood there in front of me
close enough to touch
close enough to hope you couldn't see what i was thinking of

drop everything now
meet me in the pouring rain
kiss me on the sidewalk
take away the pain
cause i see sparks fly
whenever you smile

okay i have nth else to say so this conversation ends here (:

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

yeelin just wants to see more of her pictures here! hoho.

my captive (: living on bread and macritchie water.

there's more but i'm lazy to upload. blogging is sian now cos training's so shag alr plus so much work to do rawr.i checked out SCF's website and the novice category for canoe marathon 09 is 27 km! gah i've no idea why we're doing that cos none of us will be 18 by then (junior category is only 14 km) but i'm still very excited haha :D cos after accomplishing 27 km, training wont be scary anymore!

so i need to pia more now. and cj has some judo comp this sunday so we're going to seriously run/pullups/crunches/ train this week. HC FTW!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

five years and counting;
sometimes memories never fade;
sometimes, love never dies.

You think I'm an ignorant savage

And you've been so many places

I guess it must be so

But still I cannot see

If the savage one is me

How can there be so much that you don't know?

You don't know

You think you own whatever land you land on

The Earth is just a dead thing you can claim

But I know every rock and tree and creature

Has a life, has a spirit, has a name

You think the only people who are people

Are the people who look and think like you

But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger

You'll learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon

Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned?

Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?

Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest

Come taste the sunsweet berries of the Earth

Come roll in all the riches all around you

And for once, never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers

The heron and the otter are my friends

And we are all connected to each other

In a circle, in a hoop that never ends

How high will the sycamore grow?

If you cut it down, then you'll never know

And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon

For whether we are white or copper skinned

We need sing with all the voices of the mountain

We need to paint with all the colors of the wind

You can own the Earth and still

All you'll own is Earth until

You can paint with all the colors of the wind

one meeting, that'll last a lifetime.

TWILIGHT (:

the day i went to watch twilight with fang. here's us outside the cinema (:

lol the silly girl couldnt wrench the top off her bottle and started whining about how i being the (her words: strong and mighty canoeist) should open it for her. so when i asked scathingly, 'who's the wushu warrior eh?' she went

1) 'i didnt bring my sword!!'

2) 'i dont wanna break a nail/ chip my polish!!' (she had on some sparkly-limited-edition-two-dollars-only polish from hongkong)

in the end she borrowed scissors from thsi roadside stall auntie selling earrings -.-

ms ang being all grumpy cos i refused to save the damsel in distress.

her royal highness turns away huffily.

but her inner camwhore couldnt resist. SEE LA NOW EVERYONE KNOWS WHERE I GOT IT FROM.

then when buying food, fang went all panicky thinking the uncle didnt give her change, but he did -.- haha and she called up her mom/sis/everyone double-checking how much money she had before. fangtinggggg can you sens emy exasperation hahaha

mine!

hers!

um, i had severe ATS that day. so our poses all look mainly the same ._.

in the cinema, our lovely lady said it was okay to sit randomly despite my admonitions. so okay lor i sat in my seat while she, fangwei and annabelle anyhow sat. and kena caught by the ticketwarden -.-

anw i'm almost invisible here haha the mark of a canoeist! you cant be seen in the dark (:

after coming outta the cine

fangting wanted to look for cutesy stuff. hai i admit i was a really bad friend ): my brain was dead from ATS so i kept giving patronising smiles and autopilot 'uh huh...cute' when asked for opinions ): sorry friend! she was in heaven while i had this very pained look.

cruising the mall (haha you can totally see my brain-dead look and autopilot smile)

fangting the hot babe posing in her new year's clothes on orchard road haha

the guy crashed my pic but oh well

went to taka but in the end i went home early cos i couldn't tahan anymore. see you again soon dear! (:

clean-up day!

and...these are EVEN MORE RANDOM pics of my newly cleaned and spruced up room haha. i'm proud that it doenst look like a battlefield anymore. during Os it was so bad that there wasnt space to walk, so i ditched some books in maxi's basket and he gave me this totally diao-ed now where am i supposed to sleep look.

my table! which is forever the hardest place to clean.

dressing table!

bed! my favorite place yay =D

haha i couldnt resist, pio looks totally adorable like that =D anw i realised he's one of those soft toys that you either love or hate but he's still tops on my list haha!

this pic doesnt belong in this post but i'm lazy to give it a new post. my mom-in-law cooked dinner for me =D HAHA i bet yeelin will start choking again when she reads this. but dont worry she's not my hubby! -gives bruce a pointed look, lol-

okay one last post!

<3