this week=
1) happy studying w campus ppl
2) really touched + grateful for having really really nice friends like xiangyou (who walked super far w me to get my matric n concession cards), lester (who went w me to buy stamps and waited really long for m to finish prepping my rebate when he could have been studying), and rachel (who agreed to lend me calculator for my quiz n even brought 2 models so i could choose the one i'm more familiar with :D)
3) break from tuition (unintended but still, grateful for the rest (: )
4) really awesome testimonies for my studies (: lazy to post now, maybe tmr (:
5) super mega awesome move of God for tuesday night dinner <3
overwhelmed by His grace and kindness. i serve a great and mighty God (:
tonight, feels like the greatest gift Daddy God's given me in a long long time. maybe even the greatest gift i've ever gotten in my entire Christian walk thus far. (:
i don't believe that tonight was a coincidence. i believe everything worked out this way for the past year for a reason. that even as i prayed, God spoke. I answered, and He moved. tonight really showed me the meaning of how when we take one step towards God, He takes ten thousand steps towards us.
Daddy Lord, You're doing a new work in my life. <3
Happy day! (: Incredibly motivated to work harder now. <3
Been chionging econs (which is basically a revision of A lvl ecosn) and am totally jaw-drop by just how bad my jc foundation was. only now do i realise how weak i was in the subject and how great God's grace was towards me. He came through so mightily for me and i didn't even realise the extent of it...thank you Daddy! <3
happy. (:
No one ever said it was gonna be easy (:
I feel like I need to stop stressing over my work. Haha during As twin used to say that we're stressed cos we're not feeling stressed. Yet for Os I'd be so stressed w my work that I'd freak every moment I took time off. Back then it'd actually be less stressful to study than not to study...okayyy this is bad. Very very very bad...I need to find a balance, fast! ):
yesterday's PM/meetup was good (: the presence of God was...woah! goosebumps (: didn't get any great revelations or visions though...for me, it's more of a confirmation of what i already know and prayed about (:
i'm willing to run the race (:
i had a really good time fellowshipping with adeline yesterday (: my friend was right when he said it's not what you learn during SOT that's impt, it's how you apply it afterwards. we caught up w each other, swapped a few awesome testimonies, girltalk...haha. really grateful for the intimacy that can be shared between close church friends (:
anw, my parents re-formatted my room! hahaha I LIKE. my printer finally has a stand, Kairos has his own corner, my dad bought me a new fan...and my table's now beside the window! which means i can enjoy the fresh morning/ night air while i study, awesomeness! will prob be in sch during daytime so afternoon doesnt matter lol. thanks mom+dad (:
just returned home from my last lesson of hiphop 2 (: it was...nice. going down early and dancing in the open air one last time (: i talked to quite alot of dancers today, and they're so...NICE. haha. staggeringly so. i feel like i wasted my 8 weeks of lessons hiding away, and it stings kinda bad. but if nothing else, it's taught me acceptance (:
anw, i'm super excited for the months ahead, cos i feel like this is an awesome new season of my life! study hard pray hard play hard guitar hard. new walk! and it's blasting off right next week with campus ministry's JB OUTING! happy happy :D :D
i just talked to victor, and he reminded me how there's a time and season for everything. i really don't wanna let go...
it's like...once upon a time, i dragged myself to dance class even when i was dead on my feet. i'd ask God what was the whole point of going, and though i never got an answer, i continued cos i enjoyed it and i could feel the peace when i prayed about it. even when i was super doubtful about continuing to intermediate class, i still felt that sense of
yes, go. and now when i'm finally starting to really fall in love with it, i can't feel that sense of assurance anymore...
i know that right now, dance is just a huge distraction in my life. and every hour that i spend on it means one hour less to chiong my studies or practise my guitar. but that doesn't mean it hurts any less to hear the music play and realise i'm not gonna be going back to O School for lessons anymore. and what sucks worse is that now that i've made up my mind not to continue, i can't find the motivation to pull myself through the remaining 2 lessons. haha, it's like delaying the inevitable.
oh wells. Lord, i'm putting my trust in You...
i'm so so so so so happy now!!! ((((:
hahaha. tonight was so. magical! i can't think of a better word >< to have 3 of my bestest sot friends around for one night...wow. i don't really know how to describe the joy i feel (: it just feels so...
right (: to be around the friends who know you so well and whom you've gone through so much with together. oh mans... ((((:
Matthew 18:20 "Where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them."
It's times like tonight that make me remember why this is one of my favorite verses ever (: love much.
okay. i think im writing this out of extreme frustration but.
I. REALLY. CANT. STAND. IT. WHEN. PEOPLE. DONT. REPLY. SMSES.
in a way, im glad it's been happening cos now i really understand the importance of replying my cgcs when they text me (btw, if any of you are reading this...i'm really sorry i kept forgetting to reply in the past! ><). yet at the same time i cant help but fume when others do it to me..
we keep learning about accountability. but the thing is, we aren't just accountable to our leaders. we're also accountable to our family and friends. i just don't understand how people can rush to reply their leaders but leave their friends hanging for days. isn't it very hypocritical? let's say the person asks you a question which you don't know how to answer. it could be as simple as, 'dyou know what homework we need to do?' in the event that you're not sure of the answer, is it that difficult just to reply, 'i'm not sure, but i'll get back to you' instead of not simply not replying at all?
still feeling kinda angsty. i need to chill ):
So...I guess this is goodbye. (:
Thank you, Lord...
