hi everyone should please congratulate me for wasting one whole training.
i was regretting every step by the time i walked down to the pontoon with debbie, pucca had to help me lug my boat down and the minute i got in i knew it was a big mistake. every stroke felt so damn clumsy; canoeing without twisting is seriously screwed. without the kick-twist-use-full-body-weight thingy i employ i was a complete snail compared to everyone else. my right side feels so freaking crippled, i cant grip the paddle properly and my leg is numb; not being able to kick and twist on one side means my other side is as good as dead as well. so i tried to just sit straight and spam arm power without rotation, well yes the boat does move faster but you also spin around like some mad corksrew destined for capsizing without the k-t anchorage to hold you down. i'm no dumbass, i knew capsizing in this condition means i'd never be able to swim/ climb back on pontoon so i continued wafting around feeling an utter embarassment to be wearing hc colours and in the end...i just gave up. it was a choice between kick twist burst go fast woohoo pain aggravate injury or go slow go careful still pain anyway be a total loser. how's that for good odds.
i was biting my lip eating tears all the way when fiona kept shouting at me, 'can you be more agressive magnify your actions go all out' and i really wanted to shout back, 'don't you think i know this is screwed don't you think i want to be able to pia too.'
i think the only thing that comforted me today was when simin came up afterwards and asked, 'what happened with fiona? i can't believe she said you weren't agressive of all things.'
my post sounds quite devoid of emotion, amazingly enough i don't feel sad. fiona told me, 'you gotta face facts. everyone tries but some people just never make it to the end.'
200th post, randomness.
i wonder what happened to all those bright-eyed little children to make them lose their faith in life.
and i never thought anything a guy ever said or did would actually touch me enough to make me cry.
why are you so damn intent on hiding your good side.
heehee my mom wants to kill me because for cny...
i m gonna wear my cool new white haltertop minidress with the turquoise diamonds design, do up my hair, don fangting's midnight blue drop earrings, add on my glam white handbag...
and then complete everything with my brand new blue-silver-and-white adidas sport shoes (((:
cny was fun because 1)
that thing really helped me overlook stereotypes once again 2) i found out ___'s name!!! hahah so bimbotic (: and hurhh everyone says i have bad taste once again but i dont care (: 3) i bought my dress during shopping with shar, hahah i'm still so surprised that she actually approved of it!
maybe i'll post a pic if i'm brave enough HAHA.
hi i have brilliant new meds that don't really work (big surprise), i.e. painkillers + gastric med (???) + extremely strong analgesic cream labelled POISON -.- oh and a referral letter to alexanda's ortho unit ):
i behaved myself all day! meaning walk around nicely, no jumping no doing stupid stunts, other than saving my joints it's got the added benefit of prepping me for cny. im...desperately trying to avoid being stuck in a long red cheena dress and heels but i really dont think i have much choice ): so after training, i thought i could misbehave with simin+jingyi+arlene for awhile since my babysitters shar and gao'd left. but when i tried to climb the high-jump pole, my foot slipped on this metal spike and....let's just say there was a lot, alot, alot of blood. but i'm only gonna post the not-so-bloody pics cos it's mega gross. the wound's not long but it's really deep.
haha but it's okay it can accompany my shoulder from marathon. i think the scars ain't gonna fade for quite long.
oh and quinn gave me a stash of stuff from korea for being his personal trainer! =D (his term, not mine) coolios i even got a bottle of some chinese herb laingzhi thingy. supposed to boost my immune system, apparently.
byebye i have undone homework (: and and and FENGCHI IS COMING HC TMR =D
sharon and i went to far east flora to look at flowers for vday and they are IMBA NICE =D it's like...there're coolio tulips and whatsits imported from holland besides the usual daisies and roses. we almost froze to death in the cold room and i swear my fingers got frostbitten, trust me, it is a really dumb idea to put salonpas on your skin and then walk into a freezer.
we spent gp compiling a who's-getting-what list haha! okays there're like...less than ten people (other than teammates) on mine. you still have time to get into my good books though (: simply worship me for like the next month or so and do my bidding HAHA.
stingray was good, i've figured out how to shift my weight to control the boat's tilt (: heh but we didnt realise we had to take timing so we slowwwwwlyyyyyyy took our time -.- darbs still has an injured side though and can my joints pretty please stop screwing up. i needed 2 ppl to help me for pullups just to lessen the pressure, how embarassing is that >:(
i miss class benching i'll do it tmr! =D
MIRACLE!
TWISTERS! says: brb. bathe firstHAHAHA ROFL
we will fight on (:
debbie and i switched allegiance to the stingray today! i like the speed of the stingray but we havn't made friends with it yet, stupid wind blew us over twice and we havn't quite grasped the feel of the glide. it'll be cool to learn to full-out burst in stingray though! :D
yesterday night was horrendous because i couldn't get to sleep again, i hopped outta bed and did my sixty pushups then tried to drip the calming type of essential oil. being blind in the dark, i promptly spilled half the bottle on my arm and went back to bed sopping wet and still wide awake. and all my soft toys got banished off the bed cos of the mess ):
arlene, shuaige and i were talking about vday and we asked hx what to get our guy friends. he claims he doesnt have the mind of a typical guy, but that we should 'buy them a cake and smash their face in it.' whoa =D watch out friends!
haha today was the best best best day of the entire school week mans okay so here's what happened (:
morning! went school with mr chejian ie missed my whole hour of sleeping on the bus HAHA -.- anw he sprained his ankle cos apparently his teammate threw another teammate onto his ankle during training D: whoa all i can say is...if this happens when somebody lands on cj's ankle, imagine what happens if CHEJIAN gets thrown onto someone else's ankle D: haha so anw i ACCIDENTALLY dropped my shoe bag onto his injured foot, um, a couple of times on the bus (:< hee hee then jhun boon came on, apparently with a cool new haircut cos he failed spot check. but his hair seriously looks the same and it isn't even long ._. rofl so we were trying to decide how to haul cj over the overhead bridge but in the end the guy managed it himelf la. hahaha and he had like the worst ever day of school cos everyboody took the chance to abuse him while he's immobile hahahah poor thing HAHA ^^
oh then for pe. i grew 1cm! apparently =D yayness then sharon the smartie didnt bring pe shirt so she was wearing the canoe marathon shirt. So, we must live up to the good name of hcanoe and run fast right? in the end we were so eager to run that we ran wrongly in the other direction and came back to meet everybody setting off hahaha. super malu-ating but oh wells.
then after school! simin and i went to complete pullups at the gym+ landstroke + run on grass patch. then halfway through landstroking, the extremely amusing (note the sacarsm!) zhonghan and yipyang decided to come and laugh at us just when we were about to burst #$%^&* HAHA okay fine we must have looked quite dumb thanks for announcing ti to the whole world manz. and gao you owe me icecream!! since chlorine makes people fail spot checks ^^ i want ben and jerry's! whichever falvor will make you burn hole in pocket the most rofl. okie then RUNNING. super cool cos i gave simin my shoes and it felt very x-country-ish running slowly barefooted on grass it's a nice feeling! =D yayness we should do it more often haha.
darn i'm like really high now but i really need to get a good night's sleep ciao!
yo gym was good (: haha i havn't pia-ed so hard for land in a long time =D and i know alot of ppl keep asking me to post the pics of my mangled flesh but i'm lazy zzz, just rip my uniform from my right shoulder and you'll see. but i'll kill you if you don't get my permission first.
i'm here cos i'm procrastinating -.- yay there goes my new year resolution.
okay can i say that...i love my friends alot so i live with all the times i get bodyslammed/ have my hair mussed/ head bashed/ brain+height insulted/ being the butt of all random jokes cos i know its all in the name of fun. but it gets annoying when people i hardly know try to act all chummy, like they've known me a lifetime. or give me nicknames. or try to hint that they need company for whatever. cos i'll just act dumb and not respond, in case you havn't realised by now.
btw, definition of 'ppl i hardly know' means i've been friends with you for less than a month.
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byebye i want to go try on my new earrings (:
hi i just crashed for like 3 hours, i couldn't sleep the past few nights and i keep getting headaches everyday. it's...slowly getting better. but i'll need time. i just don't know how long more i can hold on, if things don't change...at least i've stopped mutilating my room and cracking my head off the wall. and thanks pio (:
school's been alright, i'm so happy that all my teachers changed except for my fav mr william tan! :D haha i shall work harder for econs this year. am kinda sad cos most of my good frens have utterly different timetables/ lecture settings from me so i cant see them so much anymore ): haha and THANKS SO MUCH to the people who keep slapping me
hard on the shoulder and go, 'yo! how's your wound?' you guys are such caring friends, if i get battle scars there it'll be all thanks to you ROFL.
there's bio test tmr but i'm not planning to study, i need today to clear up my room, catch up on some subjects and get my thoughts and goals lined up for this year. today's scene was u-g-l-y and i almost lost my temper, ordinarily i'd have told you straight about it but this year i don't know where we stand. don't drift away...please.
so many things happened today, so many tears and so many fears.
out in that inferno, the one thing that had the deepest impact on me. seeing how brave they were, how they thought on their feet to port early and fix their boat, how they managed to keep their wits and fight on till the very end. not a trace of bitterness nor anger, just doing their very best.
there're no words for me to describe how impressed or how motivated i was by them.
but that was the spirit of a
true canoeist.
im so tired but i'm scared if i nap now, i'll screw up my sleep tonight and my race tomorrow ):
pretty (:
paddling at marina today was wow wow WOW the waves were so huge and the wind was like hey typhoon!! haha call me a sadist but i love it everytime my boat gets battered by the wind and waves, it gives me that grim determination to fight on; what doesn't kill me makes me stronger (: tomorrow the thonnies are going to go down there and give it our very best shot; though we aren't racing to win this time, it'll gives us one heck of experience for bedok.
oh the pretty seashells ~ calista and kenneth! bonus whee~ sorry ATS-
oh and i just spent a million years washing off the purple sunblock rawr! -growls angrily- it wouldnt come off with soap and water so i applied organic che(e)m concepts and used johnson's baby oil instead. it took at least 5 attempts and i scrubbed + exfoliated myself all over again after that so i'm squeaky clean now (: haha my salt-encrusted lashes were coolio but my hair's disgusting!
i need to catch some shuteye now bye bye!
zzz i'm shagged but i need to photospam first HEH. we were gonna go coro but sick lil me had to rest so we went chejian's house instead, in other words resigning me to a whole afternoon of being bullied/teased/getting my hair yanked/ height niaoed/ fb pics insulted/ name defamed...you get the picture.
somebody's too big to fit into the photo nothing, i didnt say anything.
haha stupid mushroom and cj behind
haha we went exercise station to play look at feng's face hahaha! lazy bum (:
chejian niaos me when he can't even do! ):<>
see what i mean?! HAHA ultimate cheaterbug who jumps off the ground #$%^&*
haha okay don't be angry! =D and i look super tanned (:
to make him feel better let's emphasize his height okays. fine im short please don't rub it in ):
haha fengchi tries to make me feel taller rofl thanks dude!
feng gets a lil help HAHA
judo throw! zai eh
howdy do!
fc does weird stuff to my head and cj blocked the cam @#$%^& bullies ):
haha and here's my fav pic, this is what happens when you leave a place for 5 years and come back to find it all changed =D
we met fiona and she looked right through me hurr i need to go more class outings so i dont get forgotten by everyone haha! okays i'm gonna crash now (:
i realised that from 2009 onwards, i'll never be able to do this again...
that was during Os period, when angie and i somehow slept all through lunch hour and woke up at the wrong bell, lol (: an era when my table was so choked with pga stuff nobody could walk past haha!
anyways...i was thinking about 08 and realised that i've been having a heck lotta fun this year, maybe too much. maybe i didn't put my opportunities here to good use, maybe i backslide-d too much, maybe next year i'll regret not having studied this year. don't get me wrong, i wouldn't change this year for anything. i've learnt to see past stereotypes, made friends with people i never thought i would, caught up with so many long-lost buddies...but maybe, just maybe, i can make 2009 into an even better year =D in st nicks i placed too much emphasis on studies and my social life hit rock bottom, i don't want to go the other extreme in hc, lol.
oh and anyways i'm much better now! thanks so much to everyone who's im-ed/messaged/ called me (: haha i'm draggin' myself to gym tmr no matter what, i'm sick of staying at home! and afterwards there's stayin' back with jingyi before going down to kallang yayness i can't wait! =D
this is so sucky....i'm recovering one minute then succumbing to the bug again the next....i just want to train again.
presenting:
FENGCHI'S MARVELLOUS PS SKILLS (: haha he calls it free publicity in return for helping with my gp hw but...its screwed cos majority of people who come here are obviously from hc, lol. unless...fangting wants to quit wushu? :D
anw my sore throat's pretty much gone but i've still got a terrible cough and a lil bit headache ): i think i am gonna die during land tmr ugh, waters please be nice oh pretty please this once? 8km portage is arghs we won't be able to do full out burst ): hai but i guess it'll help for the first leg of the race. anw i dont care what happens i'm going for training tmr tiger please go fast!
okay i really feel sick now byebye i'm turning in early!
1) i have sore throat (!!) + headache (!) +slight fever (?) ):
2) i feel miserable ):
3) pio's not allowed on my bed tonight cos i dont wanna spread germs ):
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i have a sore throat! ): and it's all my fault for eating so much rubbish over the hols sigh. i havn't even touched the chocs zhengshan gave me D:
today was a totally unproductive but very happy day haha! met up with shar and zhengshan for lunch and we had fun catching up with each other at yoshi's (: ate all of shar's waffle fries cos of her sore throat...which resulted in me getting mine -.-
went back to school to play bball with fengchi, shuling and zhaorui...haha, zhaorui thrashed us three
really badly. man we can play 3 on 1, 5 balls with him giving us 4 points first and STILL lose D: lol in the end we gave up playing and had this rather aimless trip around hc, listening to the guys debate on who's hot/ not ._. haha we had many disagreements but heck it was just plain timewasting :D eyecandying. which i admit is a really bad thing to do with me cos of blind faith/ bad taste haha!
headed over to poolside to get a bite and watched the polo boys having a buzz. at first we thought it was just a cboy/bboy friendly til zhaorui saw zhonghan, then we realised they were playing game as cca intro! :D coolio manz and fc used to be a ri polo boy, so we had fun introducing our friends to him and watching them play. chejian joined us after his judo and the retarded guys took extremely gay 10-shot pics -.- LOL.
fc's work of art:
chejian and shuling left before we could take pic ): and us three realised we're sports ppl who aren't that great at games haha!
canoe basketball waterpolo (:
alright i'm gonna sleep now gdnite!
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i typed this whole long post about how sad i am that my friend just broke up with his girl. and expressed worry over several other people that aren't looking before they leap. and how helpless i feel not being able to stop them. or maybe that's just my ego talking. cos who i am to think that i matter so much to you, you'll actually listen to me? and besides...we come from 2 entirely different worlds. we see things differently.
i don't know why i even bother.
in the end i realised i should just shut up.
