haha i miss gymming with sharon! this was from our last team session before nationals (:
heh i think the two of us have a funny way of going out? like most of our frens can go shopping for hours but we just find somewhere with a nice scenery, sit down and talk for hours hahaha. just came back from a catchup chat w her...am sitting in front of my com trying to play guitar. wind's blowing my hair fr the open window and it feels nice (:
anw i'm really happy cos everyone's back so we can resume prayer group next week yay! haha. twin and i prayed hard this morning and came up with a cool idea on how to fire up the group so i hope it works. sharon daniel shuling emily zhengshan ziang and me whoo! next week's gonna be a blast (:
i went through my list just now and i realised i need a financial breakthrough! so that i can:
1. eat more! like seriously. i keep getting scolded by my mum for skipping lunch. cos she say she gimme lunch money then i anyhow cook nonsense at home instead to save money hehe =P but srsly, i need to stop losing weight. the last time i checked, i was almost back at before-gaining-muscle-fr-canoe weight )=
2. evangelise more! yes i know there're always places that i can go to for free where i can build friendships w ppl (= but sometimes when i'm trying to get to know ppl who're more...movies+shopping+spending-money-on-stuff-orienteered...zz. tht's when the problem comes in )=
3. revamp my wardrobe for next yr. yea i know my frens give me their clothes n stuff. but its usually the wrong size or stuff tht i'm really not comfortable in )= nvm, i think my grandma will bring me shopping soon (=
4. buy EVANGELISM BY FIRE! hahaha this is last on my list cos its a 'want' not a 'need'. sharon was gonna get me for xmas, then she changed it to 'i kissed dating goodbye' to dark choc -.- LOL. i can wait for her church library to finish library to finish revamping so i can borrow, but then i wont be able to refer constantly. bleah.
zz. i need to go find another job!
haha, the cg sisters say my hair is getting wavy again =P okay i know i shouldn't be feeling glad abt it but... =P heh! i can't help feeling secretly happy. a little bit. cos i really really like the texture of my hair after i rebonded but the style just...it kinda scares me. it's like i lost my personality? i felt like i looked like all the other faceless girls out there who try to achieve this 'same' look that's our classical definition of good-looking. they all look the same...but then again, that's just my opinion. altering themselves to achieve the golden ratio? zz. anw, i'm still glad that my hair is going back to normal cos i feel less insecure (:
MERRY XMAS! =D
thank you to all my friends who came down for the candlelight and xmas services! (= shiyun and jingyi, who came for candlelight; zach and ken and keat, for xmas; and not forgetting daniel and sharon who came down simply to enjoy the service and help me mingle with my other friends (= thank you dears!basically, i had a really enjoyable xmas...God gave me a present that i've been longing for very much. that aside, what made me really happy today was that zach, keat and ken raised their hands for altar call! haha i was so blown away that i started crying like mad...zzz. paiseh. i'm just very touched by what miracles His love can accomplish... (=
then after service and fellowship ended, i went to bartley christian church with sharon and daniel =D it kinda reminds me of JYM days haha! i liked the part about how all the prophecies in the Bible about Jesus's coming were fulfilled. then the best part was, i met this guy fr hc (who apparently knows me cos his classmate is my teammate, but i have no idea who he is haha) and he wanna join our prayer group! HAHA! yay! i'm so so happy =D daniel can finally have a fellow believer in the group who's a guy! whoo! THANK YOU GOD (= mrt-ed home w twin and we caught up abit abt the last few wks, i'm so glad she's back! i've missed having shu and shar around.
looking forward to an awesome service on sunday!
this is cool!
Adrian says:
haha kinda
but i believe when u really love God
u would do His will
and be God centered
when u are so focused on God
how do u even focus on yourself?
i was rummaging though my box for gift ideas and i came across an xmas card given to me by my camp cgl back in'06. here's an exerpt of what she wrote:
"Rmb this Christmas that friendship is a gift fr God!
Prov 17 v9: He who covers over an offense promotes love, but whoever repeats the matter separates close friends.
Colossians 3 v12-14:
Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. ''
ahh....i really like those verses a lot! although i only met joyce for 3 days and that was 3 years ago...i havn't forgotten how caring she was towards each of us and the grace and wisdom she radiated. not forgetting the poise and dignity with which she carried herself. i'd love to meet her again some day (:
FC says:
........
you are getting quite good at this blackmail thing arh
xinhui says:
nope
i was good at it ages ago
its just that im only unleashing its true terror upon u now
FC says:
see
girls are terrible
xinhui says:
wow! you are enlightened!
FC says:
.....
hahahahaha i just snuck into my house after messing up my hair and scrunching up my hoodie. i was feeling all pleased that my parents didnt notice the new style until i went to find my brother:
me: eh, this outfit nice or not :D
bro: hmm ok la
me: my hair leh?
bro: *squints* ok la..how much? mine was thirty dollars
me: yours was WHAT?! you rebonded yr hair?? since when??
bro: uh....last year?
oh gosh...here i am feeling all pleased that mine's escaped detection for one night when my brother's escaped detection for one year....i didnt even notice... D: ROFL!
oh and today.
stylist: come, go wash yr hair
me: okay! -smiles at lisa
stylist: um...come wash your hair
me: okay! -looks at lisa again
-pause-
lisa: xinhui...you need to FOLLOW him to go wash yr hair
...
i feel like a dumb toot D: i thought the person was gonna bring shower stuff to my chair! argh...super noob ><
okay, today i was attacked. badly. and it sucks, okay? i felt so distressed and upset throughout, i just wanted to bolt. i was sitting in my seat praying like mad and feeling so freaking scared i didnt know what to do. running through my brian every single thing that mark sally lisa etc have ever taught me (they're the only ppl i can rmb to have touched on such stuff) and i couldnt rmb learning anything specific about how to deal w such situations.
i walked in, i was respectful, i was firm. i was hurt, i was confused, i didnt understand why the heck it was happening. i'm just one kid, alright? i kept running 1 tim 4:12 through my mind and praying hard God would give me the courage to do what i knew was right. to stand up for my faith, stand up for my church, stand up for my friend. and at that moment i truly understood why mark wants me to read the bible more often and build up spiritual ammo...i was quoting every single thing i could remember from Under Cover and throwing it before me as a shield.
you know what, i dont care if that situtation was horrible or unexpected. i know i was meant to learn sth from it, and i did. and i know that throughout the entire episode, i behaved appropriately and my conscience is clear. the anger of man does not achieve the righteousness of God. Father, thank You for delivering us out safely.
just came back fr beach+starbucks w kenneth, achieved my goal of suntanning but i think i'm badly burnt. lol. thanks for being a brilliant host dude! (: first time starbucks experience, dream come true!
anw, he passed me a souveneir for cal and i. it's 2 dogs hugging each other, so cute! i want the white one but i have a very bad feelingg calista will also want the white one haha. nvm la.
okay, need to rush off for some fellowship thingy w zach now. cya~
im back from gym!!! (:
hahaha feels super good to work out again, whoo! lightened the weights like crazy, sob. i took a nap afterwards and my muscles still feel fine so i don't think i'll be very achy. keat's a good partner, learns fast and doesn't complain! haha!
i wanna play my guitar but sth sounds wrong and i think the last string's too tight ): sigh...gotta wait til fri for jinyi to work his magic cos shuling's going for camp tmr and ben's still overseas. argh, im so so so tempted...but i don't want to risk snapping anything again before tuning it...!
oh and for my blessings post...i missed out a super impt part! basically ever since the give-him-candy incident, i've been following up with my bro and his attitude is really mega improved lol. like, we are freely exchanging our storybooks which sounds like damn normal but for us its like a
WOW status. then on sun, my mom cornered me in my bedroom before service:
mom: eh...later u going where
me: um...go out with friends
mum: admit it, you've been going church right
me: *stun* fakes big yawn to buy time*
mom: OI
me: okok, yes *hides under blanket*
mom: oh..okay lor go. just rmb to use yr brain
WOW. hahahahahahhahahahahah YEA MAN I OFFICIALLY HAVE PERMISSION!!! i was telling sally that my parents wont buy the 'let me go church first, then i change my attitude for the better' thing so i've been trying to 'change attitude first, then let them know its cos i've been learning from church' BUT i honestly dont think i've been doing that well. and i've been getting in serious trouble w my mom for staying out so late...heh...and my dad was supposed to have a
Serious Talk w me abt my life. but lisa preached abt honoring yr parents, mark shared w me abt some pastor's testimony along the same lines and at xinying's house i was listening to her testimony and watching her interact nicely w her mom so i figured, aiya, try one last shot at respect, swallow my pride and call my mom...and whoo i never expected to get this much in return! my dad didn't even give me the 'serious' lecure please. and my mom didnt carry out her threat to cancel my phone line. so this week i've been making sure i be extra good and return home at sensible hours etc...i don't wanna bring on another onslught of attack abt Christianity...heh. yayyyyy am super happy. was telling mark just last week that my family problems were the one area in my life which i felt i still havn't tried to submit to Christ, and that i needed to do sth abt it before the devil uses it to bring me down. and now i feel like sth good is being done, whoo!
HAPPY. YAY. THANK YOU LORD! His grace is so amazing. i didnt deserve this chance, but now that i've got it, i'm NOT gonna waste it!
oh, i just remembered something adrian told me yesterday and i think it's very cool!
'sometimes, the higher the wall a person builds around himself, the more trust he has in you as a friend to break it down. the higher the wall, the hungrier his desire for you to break it down.'
nice right? i mean, i always knew that people inside walls have a desire for others to break down the wall. but i didn't realise that the height of the wall might correspond to the degree of faith the person has in you as a friend. simply put, if A treats B as a so-so friend, A might not bother testing the friendship so much, or simply does not think B can weather the test. but if A puts more value on the friendship, A might
subconsciously put B through a higher degree of testing to discern the true potential of the friendship. kinda like how people in bgrs play the hard-to-get game, lol.
so to all the people out there who are still trying to break down walls, take heart!
1 john 4:7 let us love another, for love comes from God. anyone who loves another has been born of God and knows God.
PRAISE GOD FOR AN AWESOME WEEK! :D :D :D
haha!im so so so happy! this whole week, it's felt like heaven is open over my life and showers of blessings are coming from above! on wed, i wanted to go morning PM w em then go for tuition and carolling afterwards. but when i woke up, i had a horrible sore throat which really pissed me off. i mean, i'm the kind of person who can always foresee a sore throat before it hits, and suddenly i get one without any warning? on a day where i really wanna go and praise and worship God and hang out with cg ppl? what are the chances man. anw, i pushed myself to go cos i figured, hey, if the dumb devil's trying so hard to stop me, there must be sth really special abt this day tht he's trying to prevent me experiencing. we were running late but thank God, emily's dad gave us a lift there (: then for tuition, it got off to a pleasant start cos my tutee turned out to be somebody i used to know from my cousin's church, and guess what, she's attended chc a couple of times! i was...haha. blown away by how mightily God answered my prayer for tutees that i can reach out to. also, i decided to give her extra tuition since i had spare time but to my surprise, her mom actually paid me extra for it! so nice :D
then before carolling, i took a nap and my throat worsened. honestly, i hate sore throats to the max cos it's usually my pre-empt to fever. but this time...i really wanted to go for carolling and i felt it was God's answer to one of my prayers...an opportunity that i'd forever regret if i missed it. God not only graced me with strength to go for carolling, he was so generous in His gift that i could talk and laugh normally through most of it rather than mope around with a sickly demeanor or downcast mood. thank you Daddy! and the best part was, lisa and alec treated me to dinner after the second night's PM and it was just...haha. it just felt nice to sit around and talk and learn from them la. spiritual parents! +mark bought me honey lemon herbal tea for my throat! whoo!
then on friday, lisa blessed me with a new book to read and yesterday, i went xinying's house to learn guitar and she lent me a book too! haha! coolness. yea and xinying and i spent alot of time talking about spiritual stuff etc and i think i've learnt alot from that experience. i just feel very strongly that God wants me to learn from other leaders and not just confine it to people i always talk to. so honestly, when i had the opp to talk to xy, heh. i dont have words to describe how glad i was. spiritual stuff aside, i think i got to know and love and respect her alot more. i told xy that i felt it wasn't a chance encounter, that God wanted us to talk for a reson. and guess what, 90% of the stuff we touched on yst was discussed by pastor kong today! LOL. double mention! i better go do some serious reflection on it.
then lastly, jeff blessed me by lending me his old guitar! haha! YAY! adrian took me to penisula to re-string my guitar and he treated me to a brand new pack of guitar strings (: haha eh i dunno what jeff did to his guitar but it's hilarious, when adrian re-strung it, it literally went to pieces LOL. screws and whatnot fell off all over the place o.o but i feel bad la cos the thinnest string snapped again and it cut adrian so he was bleeding. then guess what, adrian went down to get me yet another string (right before the shop closed! good timing or what :D) and he refused to let me pay for it
again. wow. and i think i really benefitted from some spiritual stuff that he was teaching me too.....i just feel really really really blessed (:
i'm just so bowled over by the love God has shown me this week...i wanna grow stronger and be a better light for Christ too.
prom pics!
mr ngoh! (:
emily and twin
yipyang, twin, chingto
zhonghan and ben join in
bingyeow, junhong
chejian!
daniel (:
danceee
team
class
check fb for the rest haha!
sharon said sth about prom that i like ALOT!
dress
ATTRACTIVELYNOT dress
TO ATTRACT!and really, if you spam so much makeup that you aren't even recognisable, who's gonna notice how glam you look?
so, prom is over and i dont regret going for it one bit...thank you twin for asking me to go (:
when i thought about it during qt yesterday, i realised there was so much unfinished business that i had to complete at prom, and i really lifted it all to God and asked for His help. and once again God proved Himself faithful beyond all my wildest dreams, all my prayers were more than sufficiently answered (: i got the pictures i wanted, the convos i've been praying for and even some last minute stuff that popped up in my head. ever since talking to mark, i keep trying out the rebuking the devil thingy and it really works haha! spirit of fear, LEAVE!
haha oh and dancing with daniel was one heck of an experience, now that it's over, i'm really really glad i went for it (: i rmb that initially, i agreed cos i wanted to know my group members better and cos of that possible one last chance for outreach. but along the way i learnt so much more, for that one night, i really dressed nicely, learnt how to do my makeup properly by myself, and dance and spin in a dress and heels when previously, i couldnt even walk. if i hadn't agreed to dance, i wouldn't even have bothered so much. we were both damn scared initially and at first it was quite panicky cos the smoke machine thing was very unexpected and we didnt expect the crowd to rush the red carpet. plus somehow my heels raked up the carpet so i almost tripped and when daniel caught me at the last part he stumbled too. but i rmb telling myself at the start, i wouldnt care about any distractions cos we aren't dancing for man, we're dancing for GOD. and even when i almost forgot the 3rd spin, it was like the Holy Spirit guiding me along, somehow i managed to keep calm, flow through the steps and still be on the beat when i finished (:
so all in all...thank you God for an AWESOME night! Daddy, it wouldn't have been so wonderful if you hadn't been present there with us the entire time.
yesterday was AWESOME! (: playplayplay w cg. arcade was scary, jeff's hammer throw is imba! and mingwei+eugene's shooting is...wah. out of this world man. or maybe it's just me that's sucky, lol. went home, prayer conference call w mark and jeff, sleep, yay.
prom's tmr, i hope everything goes well! and i really really really hope jeff's gonna be my waiter, so cool!
my leg HURTS
i have no idea what happened except that maybe i strained it when racing sharon down the stairs to catch bus...ahh. and then i happily aggravated it by roaming ard ion with sal and shu when i shoulda just gone home and iced it immediately. grr. sometimes i think i never learn. so much for having gone through a million past injuries.
anw seoul garden was cool except that i embarassed them all by eating from um eleven thirty to three thirty? four hours, hoho. the tables beside ours were all snickering etc etc but what the heck, i'm happy (:
i dont fancy the idea of gogogo with a dumb bandage on my ankle. sigh.
i'm going seoul garden with keat shuling sal tmr!!!
wahahah i've been dreaming about the steamboat throughout all my bio revision, can't concentrate. okay im really gonna miss the days where we sit down in the library at ten and by ten thirty, i'm turning to shuling miserably and asking for food. i think they'd drop dead of shock if i didn't whine 'i'm hungryyy' at least once every half an hr fr 10am-12pm.
oh yea, and i bet the people who sell buffet food hate my guts. i'm SO gonna make sure they lose money every time i go eat hahaha!
thursday is gonna be the last paper! (:
haha although As has been long and dreary...there is one thing that i've loved alot about As...and that is how it has caused our prayer group to grow. honestly, i have no words to describe how much i've enjoyed being with them, learning with them, growing with them. me...sharon...shuling...zhengshan...emily...quinn...daniel.
although we're a very small group, i'm super thankful for the fifteen minutes of peace we have each day, meeting for prayer before embarking on the battlefield. i remember one day in reading room, weisin asked me, 'do you guys do this everyday?' and i was really happy to be able to give her a great big 'YES!' (: from a bunch of people who hardly knew each other and had to 'nomad' around searching for a meeting place, i think we've grown to know each other better, consistently messaging and praying for each other, and most importantly our personal walk with God and our accountability level has risen. shar, zs, em, quinn and i are classmates so we're more familiar w each other. but i'm super impressed w how daniel (fr physics class) and shuling (fr another SCHOOL!) are always able to keep up w us and be with us in spirit as well!
haha i don't usually say such stuff (and only shuling reads my blog anw) but they all play a very special role in my life la. sharon's my...hahaha, what else but my twin. watching my back, advising me, guiding me every step of the way (: shuling! my bestest cheerleader and guitarist and always there to lend a listening ear. zhengshan gives me a reality check whenever i need it most. emily, hahaha, pushes me to my limits in wanting to learn and grow more! daniel, forever there to ask, 'is there prayer mtg tmr?' when i forget :D quinn...daily entertainment! hahaha. i will always rmb the days each and every one had our own mini breakthroughs. i know lisa says breakthrough is supposed to be sth huge, but we gotta start small too right! :D
sharon and i, hoho, ours is usually more personal la, i dunno how to say here. shuling's guitar-ing is super good now anddddd, guess who's the asst cgl for church camp eh!! =D =D HAHAHA IM SUPER PROUD OF YOU! and zhengshan is also asst cgl for hers! yay! and the day emily answered altar call/ spoke in tongues etc...hahaha i think twin was so glad she was speechless. daniel and quinn's are stuff that i'll never ever forget: dan managed to escape the flood before physics paper and he texted all of us to say thanks for prayers n PRAISE GOD! yea, i was so happy i started laughing and jumping around the house. i'm ecstatic that even though we didnt meet up with him, God heard our prayers and gave dan safe passage. but what i'm even more elated about is how daniel was so thankful to God and messaged us to say thanks! ithat was a time that i really felt we were bonded tgt. and when sharon messaged us to pray for a friend, quinn (right now he's the only non-christian) was the only one to message back and he said DEFINITELY! =D
yea so anw, im just really thankful to God for placing me with such a great bunch of people. once As is over, we need to grow more! we have ALOT more work to do if we're gonna hit our target of having twenty members and growing spiritually mature enough to split this group to individually form new prayer groups by the time uni life starts. honestly i'm also not hundred percent sure how to proceed, but twin and i discussed for quite long today and we prayed too so hopefully we can travel down the right path haha! jiayou jiayou! Lord, may You bless us and help us all to grow stronger and spread Your light (:
1 Timothy 4:12 Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.a city on the hill cannot be hidden!
