it's like...once upon a time, i dragged myself to dance class even when i was dead on my feet. i'd ask God what was the whole point of going, and though i never got an answer, i continued cos i enjoyed it and i could feel the peace when i prayed about it. even when i was super doubtful about continuing to intermediate class, i still felt that sense of yes, go. and now when i'm finally starting to really fall in love with it, i can't feel that sense of assurance anymore...
i know that right now, dance is just a huge distraction in my life. and every hour that i spend on it means one hour less to chiong my studies or practise my guitar. but that doesn't mean it hurts any less to hear the music play and realise i'm not gonna be going back to O School for lessons anymore. and what sucks worse is that now that i've made up my mind not to continue, i can't find the motivation to pull myself through the remaining 2 lessons. haha, it's like delaying the inevitable.
oh wells. Lord, i'm putting my trust in You...
posted by xin! @ 9:30 PM
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