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i just had a revelation of what faith really is (:

i was sitting on my bed last night wondering why it's so hard to get over the activation energy to practise my guitar or hiphop. wasn't even really praying...but i just sensed Daddy Lord saying that its cos i have no faith that i'll succeed. like sometimes, i'll wonder if all the practise is ever gonna get me anywhere in the end. and if it isn't, wouldn't it be easier for me to just quit now? i read a report that says many people don't do sports cos they think they'll fail. and so its easier for them to hold back cos, if they don't try, they won't know for certain they'll fail. they can hide behind the wall of doubt and say, maybe it'd have worked out well in the end. or why us sports ppl have so many 'injuries'. we can say 'sorry, i'm not trying my best cos i'm injured.' but maybe more than that...we're afraid to try our best, not knowing whether we'll succeed.

yknow, isn't this v similar to our Christian life? like when we sow, our human minds don't know for certain that we'll reap. when we think about life past death, we don't know if there's truly a heaven. just cos we havn't seen it, we start to doubt...but yknow what? we have FAITH that everything's gonna work out fine in the end . cos the written Word of God says so...cos we've tasted of the goodness and know it to be true...cos we believe in an AMAZING God! (: in my darkest moments, i've stood up again because people've told me 'i believe in you.' that's one of the sweetest and most touching things anyone's ever said to me...it's what fuels me to fight on and not let the other person down. and i think faith's like that. it's an exchange principle. when we're trusting enough to say, 'God, i believe in You...' He's so touched that He'll give all it takes to come through for us. isn't that why we say God is moved not by desperation but by faith? (:

and for that alone, i'm not gonna give up on dance and guit (: cos i know there's Someone awesome who's here to guide me through. every step of the way (:

posted by xin! @ 9:26 PM