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yay! i slept late this morning and the weather's cold so it's very shiok! okay i know normal people dont consider seven thirty as sleeping late but still ~

anyway i like this verse a lot cos it's how i usually feel: 'Isaiah 55:12: you will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and hills will burst into song before you,and all the trees of the field will clap their hands.' nice right? to always be able to feel so happy and loved (: i think my attitude when cg started yesterday sucked big time and i'm really sorry for it....thank God it got way better as cg progressed (: hai i know this sounds very weird but i wasn't very sleepy actually. it's just that something pissed me off very badly, and when i get angry, i usually hide it by acting very sian and sleepy so i have an excuse to distance myself. i know Sharon's aware of this so when i start acting tired in schoool she'll get very very scared cos she doesnt know if i'm really tired or just majorly pissed off. haha! defence mechanism.

anw i kinda realised sth, which is that the cg is the only non-cliqued group i've been in for as far as i can remember. i'm not saying there aren't any people in the cg who're slightly closer to each other than to the rest, cos that's a natural thing. it's just that everyone seems to be able to get on so well and mingle with each other, which is sth i've never seen before fr pri sch till now. amazing right? somehow all the people i meet in sch and cca are always extremely cliquish. SIAN.

and lastly, something i was sharing with emily when we were discussing moral courage. i think it's really sad when people sense their friends in trouble but yet they do nothing to help. yes, sometimes man's might alone is insufficient and that's why we depend on God and we pray to Him. but like pastor derek said in OPM, jesus didn't say 'PRAY', he said, 'GO!' prayer works miracles, but unless you choose to step out in faith and get a grip on the situation you're having (in this case we were discussing friendship) how can God work through us to change things for the better? i know alot of my friends would say, 'just let the person chill for a while...maybe he needs some alone time'. which is all very well, but how can you let your friend have 'alone time' for days, weeks or even months on end? are we then really respecting their privacy or simply getting too lazy to reach out and help? even if the person needs to chill, i'm sure it's not gonna kill him or her if you just give a hug, a friendly word or let the person know you'll be there if needed, right? it's when you dont do anything and one day if the person really (choy) goes off and kills himself that it's too late to change anything. maybe we think we're not sensitive enough to pick up on our friends' emotions when they're feeling down, or we think we're not open enough to reach out. but....just try. you never know when a lil impact can make all the difference...

okay sorry i was actually intending to post on how fun it was to go home after cg but ahh, i just needed to say that cos of stuff i've been seeing in sch la. haha! i'm going library now (: ciao!

posted by xin! @ 8:40 AM