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i dont wanna study already. i can understand if i screw up biochem cos my revision obviously wasn't sufficient. but maths? which i chionged so hard for? it's like some sick joke please.

i sat down, opened my paper and died. i think i'm the only retard in the world who didn't realise stats is only sixty percent of paper 2. damn it la. i think prelims is actually the one exam i'm gonna screw up the most in my entire hwachong life. how the heck am i gonna face my teachers if i get 4Us. and the worst part is i'm not even scared. somebody tell me if that's guts or pure dumb bravado.

oh, and today morning was screwed too. no forewarning whatsoever, walked in, sat down, crapped. not proud of it. at all. even zhengshan says she could tell i wasn't prepared. i'm really quite sick of people flaunting moodswings around me. i keep getting nightmares of my friendships dying. honestly i don't really care anymore.

tomorrow. tuition with jiayi and fujie. if i can't even solve their questions i swear i'm going to....ah. i also dunno la.

posted by xin! @ 6:08 PM