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just a quick post before i start. i read my friend's post about how sometimes God speaks to us but we're so distracted that we cant hear it. so i wondered if i'd missed any miracle that God showed me and i realised i got one yesterday! cos for my first 2 services, i really froze cos my cardi wasnt warm enough. thus yesterday i was really very doubtful if i should pass my jacket to fujie in case i froze as a result. in the end i thought, heck, God will not shortchange me so i gave it to him. and now i realised i didnt shiver at all throughout the whole service! yay! (: happy happy!

one more thing. fujie asked me for my L1R4 and without thinking i uttered 'huh, how would i know, i dont even calculate L1R4.' what i meant was that when i was in st nicks, L1R4 wasn't impt so i have no idea how to calculate it (i got so confused i told him my L1R5 is 7 and my L1r4 is 8, which is impossible) but in retrospect i realised that people who didnt understand what i meant would probably have thought i sounded very arrogant, as though my L1R5 was so good that i had no need to worry about L1R4. well yesterday i told calista that my biggest fear of receiving lousy As results was not my future but rather, having to suffer a big blow to my pride. despite our constant reminders that it is a myth that hwach students are all smart,i honestly cannot imagine how shameful it would be to admit to my friends that i got lousier results than my friends from nj,pj and such. thus, i've decided that the only way to force myself to study right now is to type out my supposedly good Os results right here. it would be an incentive for me to mug cos then i'd really have no place to hide my face if i get bad results for As. i'm really taking a giant step of faith by doing this so please don't judge me and say i'm too proud or anything. i wouldn't be doing it if i had any other choice.

ENGLISH LANGUAGE A1
LITERATURE IN ENGLISH A1
COMBINED HUMANITIES A2
MATHEMATICS A1
ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS A2
CHEMISTRY A2
BIOLOGY A1
HIGHER CHINESE B3
CHINESE A1
CHINESE (ORAL/AURAL) DIST

yep. i'm going to go pray, study and hope for the best. (and hopefully milk my beginner's luck for all it's worth =P)

the final and most difficult thing: suddenly it seems like all those 'difficult' classmates are searching for God. or so i presume from their blogs. well twin guess...we have an average of 4 months to work a miracle with people we've known for almost 2 years and hardly ever talked to (:

posted by xin! @ 11:06 AM