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feeling very disturbed in my spirit.

been mediating quite abit on Corinthians lately...i feel that God's been telling me that i gotta love people more. and even as i try to do so, i'm just really saddened by the unloving acts which i see from people around me. and it hurts a whole lot more when i see them coming from people whom i love as friends...

sometimes...i just wonder. is there really any need for us to go outta our way to make the lives of others miserable? sure, we might think that others don't notice the little smirks you exchange or the stage whispers which you don't bother to hide. but hey, they're humans too. just cos they might have a different race...religion...or just a different personality together...doesn't make them aliens. just cos they don't express it, doesn't mean they didn't notice it. and just cos they're different, doesn't give us the right to lord it over them.

we might think it's nothing, but it's bullying. it's that plain, and it's that simple. whether or not we try to pass it off as jokes, passing remarks, or even plain old sacarsm. the Bible says that death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits. instead of sowing confusion, fear and hatred, why can't we learn to sow love, respect and compassion? why can't we learn to build others up instead of tearing them down?

i'm not perfect, and i know that only too well. i still rmb hwachong days when i didn't yet know God, and i blatantly assumed that since people had been mean to me before, hey, i could be mean to others too. and in my spitefulness and screwed thinking i'd even go outta my way to tear down others i didnt like, thinking it'd be better to make them fall before they made me fall. and to those people i hurt so much, i'm really, really sorry. cos i see now that it was my own fear and insecurity, rather than the perceived 'flaws' that i 'saw' in others, that resulted in my selfish actions. so i just hope that if you guys ever see this, you'll be able to forgive me. and for those whom might be hurting others and causing them pain--whether you mean to or not--please stop. don't walk down the same road i did. cos not every relationship can be repaired, and not every action can be forgotten. the world's small...you never know when you might have to work with the hand you choose to bite today.

praying for you guys. hope this post impacts and blesses somebody today..

posted by xin! @ 12:41 AM